Love and War

For all of you that have long drawn-out labors.  I feel for you.  However, quick labors can also be scary especially when your birthing plan involves drugs and you don't have a plan b.

9:36 PM Monday water breaks 

Contractions start immediately and are HARD and close together

10:30 PM Get Marley to friend's house

11:00 PM Get to hospital check in get in room 

12:28 Jake is born

I like to think that I handled Marley's birth pretty well.  My nurses both came to see my afterward so I couldn't have been too annoying :)

This time was an embarrassingly different story.  I hope I never see those nurses again.

First of all I come in to OB Triage sobbing and wearing drenched pants.

I was also a bit vocal.  Ok, I was a screamer to the point I was hoarse after delivery.  No, I did not scream profanities.  I may have said the "s" word under my breath once.  

I do remember yelling,

"Owie, Owie, Owies".  (Maybe I hang-out with a 2 year old too much) 

"I'm NOT handling this!!" (duh).

"Please make it stop"

"I don't want to deliver tonight"

I also remember begging for drugs.  I honestly believe it was my persistence, though, that got me those drugs.

Later I was told that the doctor said that she had never seen such a calm husband in delivery.  Thank goodness I have Jared.

Well, I got my epidural and had to push immediately following.  I could feel NOTHING.  No pressure - nothing.  So, I had no idea where to push.  

This is the result

This was taken going on almost day 4.  It looks considerably better that it did on day 1.  I burst a vessel in my eye.

I saw my reflection in the mirror the following morning and asked what happened.  My eyes were swollen and the lids were blue/purple.  My face, legs, & feet were puffy.  My chest and back were speckled with red dots.  

I looked I like had taken a trip down the birthing canal myself!

Apparently I had pushed a little bit too hard in some of the wrong places and had burst little vessels and capillaries all over my body.  

Giving birth is quite the experience.  I think we're all crazy for going through it more than once.  We must really love these little people to willingly go through almost anything to get them here.

I am in love with my baby Jake.

By the way, I took Jake in to the pediatrician today.  He took one look at me and asked if my eye situation happened during delivery.  When I said, "yes", his reply was "cool".