I was just scrolling through the posts I've done since Jake was born.  I had to smile.  Has it really been that simple?  Hawaii, angel baby, loving big sister, awesome husband, supportive family.  Wow, my life is awesome! :) (please note the sarcasm, if you didn't catch it.)

Those that I'm close to know.  They KNOW that every time they call me that my first response will be tears. :) I'm kinda surprised they keep calling.  So, to keep things real and to be realistic about the past 6 wks, this is how I've really felt.

I TOTALLY debated back and forth about Hawaii.  If I had a somewhat easy or normal delivery I don't think traveling across the ocean 5 wks postpardum would be such a big deal.  But, that wasn't really the case for me.  I had already had a couple of infections as well.  But, I decided I would rather be relaxing in Hawaii with my hubby than in Phoenix alone.  So, I packed up my orange donut and we went. I couldn't walk the next day because I hurt so bad from all the travel.  I ran high fevers 2 days later from another infection.  I was still bleeding and never was able to get into the water.  But, I did proudly tote my orange donut down to the beach to sit on and watch while the others caught awesome waves.  Oh and did I mention that I had diarrhea the entire trip? :)  I know that's a lot of info, but I'm just keeping it real.  So, let's just say it wasn't the "perfect" hawaii trip.  Am I still glad I went?  Sure.  Would I have preferred to go a different time?  Definitely.  1 month later would have made a world of difference.  

Luckily, I had some great family that totally took Jake when I got sick.  Like, took him all night on THEIR vacation.  They got up every couple of hours so I could sleep.  wow.  They also made sure that I was able to eat each meal without an infant in my arms.  There were constant offers to take him so that we could go to the beach, go for a walk or do whatever and have a break. 

So all in all, the past 6 wks have been memorable.  Memorable enough that Jared jokes that he doesn't think he'll ever have to remind me to take birth control again.  (It used to be a nightly routine for him to remind me).  So, yes I have lost weight fast.  Faster than I did with Marley, but like I told my cousin's wife, "I would trade the 3 wks of diarrhea and 5 infections for the 10 extra pounds I lost any day!"  :)  Oh, and I'm still sick.  Please tell me there is a light at the end and that there will be a day again in the near future when I'm not sick and when I'm not tired and when I don't feel totally alone?  Ok, I'm being a little dramatic.  I'm not totally alone.  I do have a couple of friends.  But seriously, times like these are when you REALLY wish you lived near family. 


  1. We wish you lived near by too.. it will get better Honest!

  2. I'm just going to e-mail my comment.

  3. Keep yer chin up honey...Just like your mom said. It get's better, SO much better. And speaking from experience...go get some meds if you need them. That's what they're for. I really wish I would have stopped trying to be super woman and gone in much sooner than I did. Then when Lex turned about 1 it was like a cloud lifted from me...and I was me again.;)

    P.S. You know I don't mind the tears. It just makes me want to spike your drink with a zoloft or something. Love you.;)

  4. Hey Girlie! Sorry to hear you are sick. If it makes you feel any better, you made another cute baby in the process!
    I am away from all of my family too. I feel your pain in that area. It's stressful times like these that we do need to cry to our family and friends and not care that we do, but these times also make us stronger for the future (at least that's what I tell myself). Hang in there!

  5. Heidi,
    My last two kids I felt like that, minus all the infections. I did have a few but not ten infections. So this go around I asked the Doctor for happy pills before I delivered. I have felt much better. Yes I have had a couple of cry days, but I don't fell like the walls are caving in on me. I always tell myself 3 months is the charm! This newborn thing is probably the hardest. So just keep telling yourself it will get better!
    Oh and you can't eat Ice cream, I can't eat strawberries, chocolate, their is a bunch of other things. Sometimes I feel like I should just eat bread and water.

  6. Oh Heidi,
    I love how you wrote it how it is. So true! Bless your heart. I wish I was in Phoenix to help you. Those first three months of two kids were brutal for me. It does get easier. Love you!

  7. Oh my gosh Heidi. You poor, poor woman!!! Why didn't you call me? I am so happy to take Marley for the day (even the night- she was so good before when we had her) and I would absolutely love watching Jake too. Please, please call me!!


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